Not what I wanted today to turn out. Instead of being happy, there’s arguments. Things won’t work out if only one person change. Matter fact both people changed, one changed for the worst and the other for the better. No feeling of unison, having no connection, no chemistry. To resent in someone elses resentment(something from Kyle xy). Something that fits this gap perfectly that I feel, filling me more fulfilling, you can say I feel full. I guess its because I’m expressing myself which i don’t do that often. I think over and over so much times to come out with what I think is best not right, right but not the best. I matured since a while ago.
It really fucking pisses me off how my fucking dad has no remorse for what he’s done. Cheats on my mom and questions back to her. What did I do wrong, I didn’t do anything wrong it was all your fault. I sit here hearing these bullshit lies giving her false hope as she starts to believe them, wanting it to be true. Should I trap him in his lies or let him run about. I have the ability to try and hold this family a little bit longer, or let him go, because my mom doesn’t deserve this. Act as a closed mouth and forever hide what lies in me or open my mouth knowing forever, I was the reason why my parents are separating. I am the key to treasure and the bomb to casualty. Doing what’s right is hard and sometimes I just don’t wanna do anything.
Is it better to keep secrets or tell the truth. It can be quite complexing. To love someone you try to do the least to hurt them no matter what it takes, But then what about honesty. Able to tell them the truth no matter how much it hurts, because you know that’s what they wanted you to do, for you to never lie to them. But that could be the other way around. The only way to know that is after the fact is has already happened and is too late to change. I’m in the middle. You can say I hold the truth and the lie. I have both chances to do something right and something wrong. I’m going to do what’s best and hope everything turns out alright in the end.